Just read my friend's blog and I think I have found an answer for myself and for her also. Impulse. When you do things at an impulse without thinking, it is equivalent to not thinking of the consequences (just like the racing, most likely I acted on an impulse). When you think before you do, perhaps things might just be better. And maybe many people think hence politics and politically correct answers come into the picture. Some people think too much is because they really cares for the environment they live in. Contented we may be, but they is always someone to spoil the day or just make your life difficult but treat it as a form of training and you will grow up to be a much better person after that. This is quoted by my officer who consoled me when I was having a hard time in army until the point of tears. Until now, I still bear in mind his words which are so meaningful to me and helped me overcome a lot of troubles in my life.




Wow, its been a wonderful weekend with full of acitvities for me. Hope all you friends out there has enjoyed yourself too. ;) Well, only get my chance to log in online only when I am in office proves that I have really used my weekend fully.

First to complain is of course last week's tough job, the new equipment that I am in charge of has came from UK so I was tasked to handle the unpackaging. Hmm... come to think of it, lots of things happened.. Don't think I will write that out but anyway, I was stuck in the middle of a strong political war. Well, I know that political wars do happen, just wondering why do politics always occur, is it because everyone wants things in their own way and they cannot do it forcefully hence they resort to tricks ? Strange to find that sometimes problem can be easily solved if someone makes a compromise. That is why I have always wanted to give way to my friends who are naturally strongheaded and keen on winning, the thinking is simple, just let them "win" and they will feel so much better and make their day whereas for my side, nothing happened or change for me, so everyone's happy.

Second is I read the newspaper yesterday about the accident of a Mazda MX5 sports car that flew over the center divider and crash onto a BMW and lorry. It has really struck me hard, how potentially dangerous it can be where someone speed on the road, you not only cause your own life at stake... you will ultimately cause an accident that will make you regret for life. This struck me hard because just a few weeks back, my friend who is driving with half of my friends on board was speeding way beyond the speed limit designated by the car which is to say, very dangerous. If I were to know that he is really so keen on overtaking and winning me, I would have long slowed down so that my friends on board will have a safe journey. Even a sports car can crash so badly to kill someone, what about a normal car.
This brings me to another area, I was driving along loyang ave, and there is this mini van, it was really unintentional on my part to be at the same speed as him and he thinks that I am forcing him to a race, so on my side, i tested him which i guess is my fault also, I just tail gated him a while, and voila... fire burns and he started to be aggressive, I gave up thinking of my 3 Ls (Licenses, limbs, liability) but he does not and start tail gating me, so in the end I have to drive at 150km/h to get rid of him simply because I know the maximum speed he can attain is at most 130km/h. While I must admit that I have a sudden rush of addiction to the race which I very much regreted later and a lot of fear because I have never drove that fast before. First and foremost is because I had one friend who is beside me and I am endangering my friend's life, secondly, it is plain stupidity to just race like that due to whatever, provocation or male ego or whatever. For my case, provocation from that driver maybe drives me to that or just plain playful (very very wrong). Now after reading the papers yesterday, I have made a pledge to myself that I will never ever speed again unneccesarily. I treasure my friends, cars and most important of all, life. So I would really plead or advise with those who always speed to really think of all those people beside you before you decide to just step on the accelerator, its easy to step on it, but it is difficult to control the car then. And my friends out there, next time if I am driving you ppl and speeding, please remind me of my pledge.

Just another thought, I was out with a few friends during the weekend and something happened which brought another thinking to my mind, maybe I do think too much. But it did happen to me once before. Maybe this time is totally different from the last time but it do bring memories back. Why are some friends naturally more pro-ces-sive... ehm... don't know how to spell it. haha... anyway in chinese is call zhan4 you3. Ehm..think my chinese also cannot make it. haha.. Maybe through care or just plain jealous, just made me curious why they are sort of interested to control my life or the friends I met but anyway just a thought from the past and nothing to do with the people I go out with during the weekend.

Still got a lot of things to write on but think I shall just let those things remain as memories in my mind as the post is getting a bit too long.




Super super busy yesterday... Not really that good to start off the week with so much work to do. Yesterday was really very very tiring for me... Worked in the clean room for the whole day... But good news is I manage to complete the task given to me so not that bad after all. Went for my vocational licenses test thingy in the evening and gosh was it super easy.. haha... should not have studied for it. haha.. I was so tired after the test until I just cancelled a meeting with my friend to go home and rest. haha..

My car has not arrived and gosh.. I already got so many things I wanted to fit in the car le. haha.. things like DVD player with LCD screen plus TV tuner, V-kool, 18 inch sports rim, anti roll bar, tower bar, under strut bar, rear bar and brace. haha... lower suspension... guess all my money will go into the car le. haha.. What to do... at least car is more faithful to me. haha... ops... no offences.

Well... for those who know me, when i get really tired le... thoughts will run in my mind... and this morning my friend msg me to tell me that her ex msg her. So then at that point of time I just had a thought, don't know if you people have this kind of thinking... You feel like having someone by your side but you fear to go into a relationship because you have been hurted once very deeply.. Wound may have heal but scars will always be there. But does that means that will give you an excuses not to commit fully into the next relationship, is it fair for the other party. well then again, fair has never been an appropriate word to be used in relationship, one have to be real fortunate to have such a relationship, most of the time is one give and take. haha.. sound quite cmi rite.

Why is it that there will always be someone who is totally unaffected at all whereas the other suffer in pain and agony alone. There is really a limitations on how much a friend can help you, the rest is up to the person involved. Recently have been examining these relationships thingy and found that it is easier said than done because I have been through it first and honestly speaking, I am really afraid of going into another relationship, maybe just not yet met the gal that can really give me that kind of feeling. So right now, my dear partner will be the one I have always loved... My car... keke.. until when I finally met my real life ideal partner, my car will always be my truly beloved one. keke.. (^_^)




Oh well... this happens in real life. keke... can you imagine how funny friendship can be. both appears to be normal friends in front of others but in fact they bears full of hatred for one another... keke... tried to solved the problem but realise that it is ultimately up to them to see if they are willing to compromise and come to a term. most of the problems that happened seems to be because of misunderstanding... everybody just like to leave things behind and hope that it will be automatically... my friend commented that it is okay if my friend think of me in this way, i can always do without them... this really shocks me and it also creates one big impact on me... I do treasure my friends a lot... but do they treasure me as a friend or I am just being treated as someone who can entertain them when they are bored or someone who just happen to be a spare which is always available any time they need me... Well, but then for me, irregardless of how they treat me, i still regard them as friends. Maybe I am too easily satisfied and not demanding in a friendship. But does that means that I can be taken advantage of ? I do feel something when these things happen just that I can tolerate more. anyway that's all for now. just a thought with no direct person related.




Well recently found that my skills in consoling people is getting worse and worse... Does not seems to be able to help people as much as before. Now it seems like what I can do is just to lend them a listening ear. Maybe my approach nowadays are all wrong... Seems to be offending people more than console them... But anyway just hope that they don't mistake me again, I am really trying to help and not laughing at their agony.

Well, let's talk about something happy. I have just ordered a Toyota Vios that is due in Dec this year. Quite excited about it and I am already making plans on how to modify it. keke.. hope the car does not become too .... haha... Will update more on the condition of my car real soon. Anyway my brother's Honda Jazz is coming this Nov... keke... So guess it is going to be a long wait.




Down with food poisoning... Sucks... Feel so jia lat sia.. Went for a wedding dinner on sunday night, whole family down with food poisoning.. Somemore the day before, I went for some servere exercising... Now whole body ache and stomache upset also... Worst still... getting some stupid cramps on my chest... That's all for now. Not feeling well.. no mood to write so much things.




Wonders of Life...

Sometimes until a certain point of time, certain questions regarding friendship starts to surface out. Some may ask, is being easy going okay? Well my answer is as long as ultimately you know what you want, why not because you have just made this world a better place to be in. If in this world, everyone wants things in their own way, then who will accomodate to them? There must be people in this world to help others to share their troubles and worries, even if you cannot offer any direct help, but I am sure you have reduced their agony just by lending them a listening ear.

Normal friends are full of compromises just like doing business dealings, good friends are those who knows when you are being compromised and offered some solutions to spice up the deals, close friends are those that you do not need to speak but they know what you want with no expectations for any returns. best friends are all of the above with something beyond. Knowing a friend for a long time does not means he/she directly falls into any category. Obligations does not seems like a applicable word to use here.

Confused will certainly sets in when questions like this are being asked. More questions to be pondered on. How well do you trust your friends? Can they be trusted? How will you feel when you realised that you have been betrayed either for the better or the worse? Will you ever feel unworth when you helped a friend? Selfish you may think, but that's life. If you have answered all these questions, maybe you will get the answer you want for the definition of friends. (^_^)

Just had another thought. Have you have accidentally done/said something wrong to your close friend and then in the end prayed that they will forgive you... Will things be back to how it was? Sometimes I really regret the stupid things I have done, can scars ever be removed after the damage has been done ? Will I be given a chance again ? If I am not been given a chance, is it that the damage that has been done is too great or simply i am not that close to my friend afterall. Pondering such things always gives me headache so to blog it out will be better, at least it is not bottled up.




Wow... lots of things to talk about. Last sat, I rented a Toyota Vios to drive around during the weekend. Also take this opportunity to test drive it to see if the car is nice cause I will most prob be getting the car next year. keke... Went to a new place in clarke quay called Liquid Bar. Well... As I was driving, so... no alcohol. haha... Well the first thing that happen was I gotten one parking offence ticket.... Argh.... I parked outside the bar on a double yellow line. haha... no car park lot since the place is too crowded le... sad... heart pain pain sia... but then it is all for the joy and enjoyment... well talk about enjoyment... not really have the chance to drink or play the pool inside... so... well ... for the joy and enjoyment of my friends ba. haha... Must talk more about the car.. haha ... really very satisfied with the car, pump a full tank and when i returned it this morning, it still have a quarter tank left... After travelling 480km !!!! super fuel saver..

Went for a wedding dinner on sunday night... ... ... And kena food poisoning... four times in toilet le from last nite until this morning... getting a bit cmi le... that's all for now.. maybe i should take half day off... haha... laziness bug influencing me again. haha..




It's been a long long time since I last wrote a blog. Recently maybe too many things happening onto me le, having mood swing very often, glad that my good friends are around to console and helped me, really wanna thank them. I have thought it through le and the problem will be solved.

Some how felt that it is the lifestyle that I am leading that lead me into this, hence from now on, I will be changing my lifestyle. No more ESS (eat, sleep, shit) lifestyle for me le, now will be something like eating healthy and excercise more, so anyone wanna excercise I would appreciate if you ask me along. (^_^) Now my weight is a astonishing 76kg.... Argh.... I want to lose some weight... My target shall be 65kg... Don't know how long it will take... weeks... months.. or even years !!!

Do check back my blog as I will be updating frequently again. tata for now.